7 honest truths.

lunch 3.19.12

Let’s be real.

Lately, I’ve been feeling less than jazzed about my blog. For a while, I was like, that’s fine. I’m okay with a boring blog. I don’t need to give it a ton of attention all the time. I’m busy! I couldn’t quite put my finger on WHY this reasoning didn’t satisfy me, but now I see it’s because I haven’t been super honest on it. It’s hard for me. Friends have to call me out on this from time to time, “Sarah, just say what you are feeling!” or “Why didn’t you tell us this before?!”

I don’t want to over-share on this space, but I do want this to be a more authentic place.

For now, here are 7 honest truths.

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1)  My relationship status.

I don’t write about this topic on my blog, but I’ll give you an update.

Current status:  Single, but I have a crush.

Don’t get too excited for me; it’s unrequited. I’ve been writing a series of emails – a friend’s husband calls them my novelette – about this crush. Although having a crush on someone who confuses the heck out of you – and ultimately isn’t interested – isn’t fun. I’M HAVING SO MUCH FUN WRITING ABOUT IT.

They came out like letters to him (my friend Tom calls that my “epistolary” approach) that I would NEVER send to him, preferring instead to email them to close friends, although now the circle is widening. Ha! I’ve written ten parts to the series, and emailed out eight parts. It will END at Part X though. I’m getting off this train wreck.

Although, I have to admit, it’s one hilarious train ride. When it elicits responses from friends like, “He’s such an effin’ psycho weirdo!!” you know it’s good.


2)  My baking identity crisis.

For a long time, I associated me and my blog with baking. Or that’s how I justified it. (Like, I couldn’t have my blog be just about me. That was weird.) And, of course, I’m no professional baker. In fact, at first, I didn’t even know how to write about recipes. Early on, I baked a blogger’s bread that was her mom’s cherished recipe and posted the recipe on my blog with a credit and link to her. Um, no. You don’t do that. Either adapt or totally link the recipe back to the original source. I felt horrible.

So, I finally got that figured out. Kept up with my crazy baking ways. Joined more online baking groups. Friends were always wanting to bake together.

Then, I got SIX CAVITIES this year. I haven’t had a cavity since I was like eight. The only thing I did differently was go batty on baking. For the blog! Because it’s my thing! I’m not sure what other bloggers are doing…..but I ate all that stuff I baked. That’s a whole lotta sugar. That’s not normal. I’m working to get back to normal. Whatever that is. Currently, it involves a little less sugar, chocolate most days, some real meals thrown in at least once a week, and a lot of burritos. I’m still baking on weekends though. Fried doughnuts never tasted so good after a week with very little sugar.

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3)  Re-reading + Smut Obsession.

  • Not only do I read gobs of Young-Adult books, but I reread them. I know! I just bought Divergent AGAIN because I mailed my little sister my only copy and want to reread it. I’m going to reread The Hunger Games TOO!
  • I love – ADORE – gossip magazines.
  • I read that smut Fifty Shades of Grey trilogy. All three of them. On my computer. In one weekend. It’s horribly written, disturbing, confusing (I had to look up a lot of the “terms” in that book on Wikipedia), and yet, I couldn’t stop reading it.

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4)  Diet Coke Addiction.

I gave it up a while back – and was SO PROUD of myself – but then I started to drink it again around the holidays. I had been enjoying one a day until the evil dentist’s office. Like with sugar, I’m doing the “less is better” approach. I didn’t have any last week.

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5)  Career Confusion.

This weekend, I saw two of my classmates from last semester at a coffee shop. It was a gorgeous day, and they were stuck inside, hunkered down with work. I just blurted out, “I’m so glad I’m not taking any classes right now!” They just stared at me. Afterwards, I sipped iced coffee in the sunshine with Jen, and she said, “Um, maybe you shouldn’t have said that to them. They were working pretty hard inside on a pretty, pretty day.” Errr, so true. I felt quite bad after I said it to them. But I don’t miss classes AT ALL. Do I want to still be in the teaching program?!  I don’t know.

6)  Television Loves.

  • Downton Abbey.
  • Real Housewives……of anything.
  • Ice Loves Coco fascinates me.
  • And I watched Frozen Planet on the Discovery Channel last night and cried. The penguins braving the freezing wind for their nests. The mama polar bears starving! It was a tear jerker.
7)  Weird socks + Clunky clogs habit.
I can’t help it. Or maybe I can?Wow, that felt really good. I’ll try to be more honest in the future.

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28 Responses to 7 honest truths.

  1. What a fun post! I have long enjoyed your blog for the food, the photos, and the snippets you let us see of your life. But I think blogging might be a place where more is more, at least a little. ;) This is a great start!

    • Sarah says:

      Thanks Chrissy! I love how you write your blog, and enjoy following it so much. I’m realizing that mine doesn’t have to be so, so, so much about food and recipes. It’s refreshing!

  2. Lindsay says:

    Speaking of honesty, I absolutely loved reading this! Gave me a much better sense of everything that makes you YOU than any baking recipe ever could. If you wrote more stuff like this, I will gladly read it! Honesty is always the best policy…so I’ve been told, anyway. :) I totally hear you on the Diet Coke thing….I love it so and yet it I know it’s terrible for me. Kicking it cold turkey will never happen, but limiting myself to drinking it as a treat for the week is more of a possibility. :) More honesty in the future, please? It makes me feel less like a crazy person to know that I’m not the only person in the world who’s confused about her love life/Diet Coke addiction/gossip magazine obsession/weird socks + clunky clog fetish. That said, I will never surrender my beloved clogs in spite of my mother’s intense hatred of them. Ugly/comfy clogs forever!

    • Sarah says:

      Oh, this is so nice to hear. Relatable vs. Nuts. More honesty in the future, I promise!

      P.S. Diet Coke is SO addicting!

  3. Kaitlyn says:

    Honestly, I love your blog & find your posts to be so inspired and lively! Never knew you were having a slump.

    • Sarah says:

      Aw, thanks! I think I just thought I had to tie in baking so much…..and cutting back on sugar was a game-changer. (A good one though!) Or people were sick of seeing pics of weekends with my cat and marathon food. Ha! I’m like, “I really do get out and socialize.”

  4. Kristin says:

    Sarah- great blog today! I didn’t think you were lacking, but I love real honesty and so thank you for being brave and putting it out there. You have to put up your 10 part letter series eventually- I’m intrigued!!
    And pffft- we all love Desperate Housewives and poorly written novels and Downton Abbey (thank you for that suggestion because you got me hooked). And all the other guilty pleasures. *SUGAR*
    Keep writing because I check your blog almost every day for a smile :)

    • Sarah says:

      Kristin – thank you for leaving such a sweet comment! Downton Abbey is a must-see by the way. (Especially season one. They just aired two, which was good, but not as good as the first season.)

      On sharing the letters – whew! – maybe someday. Maybe. Or it might be a total overshare? I’ll sit with it. They’ve been fun to work on though.

  5. Karis says:

    Awesome post.

  6. Sarah – I absolutely adore your blog and feel like I should have been commenting more for positive reinforcement! I always look forward to your posts, and your writing (and pictures!) never fail to brighten my day. And there are some many awesome things I’ve discovered because of you – Downton Abbey (I’m thinking of re-watching the entire series); YA novels (loved the Gayle Foreman books); the Joy the Baker podcast; Morroccan Oil; and tons of activities and places in Vermont I want to visit (I really need to get to My LIttle Cupcake and El Cortijo). Your blog is one of the few blogs that inspire me to resurrect my MIA blog, which I have no idea what to do with now. And although I’m not running the VCM this year, I really enjoy hearing about your training! So, just wanted to let you know how much I appreciate the effort you put into this thing, and I’ll love to read it regardless of how much baking you do. Great post!

    Megan :)

    • Sarah says:

      Thanks for your sweet words, Megan. S nice to know that I wasn’t boring everyone with marathon training updates! The first time I trained, my friends were like, “STOP TALKING ABOUT RUNNING!” I actually started this blog to track my training. So, it’s funny that I now think it’s sort of boring. Ha!

      Resurrect your blog. I enjoyed it!

  7. lara says:

    Thanks for sharing so much – I love your blog, either way, but it’s really nice to get to know your better. Totally feel you on the whole TV, YA books, and diet coke addiction. Oh, and your letters about an unrequited crush to your friends sound like a synopsis for a YA novel to me!

    • Sarah says:

      Thanks Lara! Good to know I have company with my addictions, obsessions, and likes:)

      The letters are sort of like a YA novel! Another friend said the same thing after reading them.

  8. Chelsea says:

    Hey Sarah! I agree with some of the others that I didn’t realize that you were feeling in a rut, but I’m glad that you got those things out there! You really are an inspiration to me to live a better life. I think a good life should include having interesting dating experiences, eating sweet treats, reading celeb mags etc. One other thing..I have terrible teeth..as in I have multiple fillings in all of my teeth…even though I brush them all the time! My dental hygenist told me that it’s not even necessarily related to the quantity of sugar you consume. A lot of the time it is genetics. It can also be related to some acid reflux and the type of bacteria your mouth naturally produces. Also they say not to brush your teeth immediately after you eat sugar but instead to brush them before. This is because if you brush them after then it causes you to rub in the sugar/acid into your teeth which already have a build up of tartar and therefore breakdown the enamel more. If you brush them before, then you don’t have the build up of tartar to start with and you wont be grinding the fresh sugar into the enamel and breaking it down quicker. Woah sorry for this dental info overload. I’m not in the dental profession but I just found this to be an intersting perspective! Thank you for inspiring me to live well :)

    • Sarah says:

      Um, I LOVED the dental advice overload. I never knew that! Thanks! I definitely always brush after….so, I’ll have to try to switch it to before. My dentist also told me to eat less snacks, because that keeps your teeth coated with sugar/food. Better to eat three meals a day, and like one or two snacks. This might seem normal to most people, but I’m a NIBBLER, thus causing me to eat like eleven small meals a day, much like a Hobbit. And I’ll still do sugar….it just made me see that I was having a little too often.

  9. Lesley says:

    Love this post!

  10. Jessica says:

    Love this. I’ve been trying to go the same way as well and not trying to force the blog to be a business of “how-to’s” and expertise and more just plain ol’ living, whether it’s boring or not. On that end, I’ve never found your blog boring, and I love the photos and things you do. Blogging about what you’re doing because you love them vs. blogging to blog because you have a “readership” and “stats” and money to earn.

    I LOVE Real Housewives, though I particularly like NJ.

    • Sarah says:

      Thanks Jessica! I’m so glad that we just do this for fun. It’s becoming harder for me to read blogs where it’s their job for some reason. (And it’s nice to hear about your Real Housewives love. Yay!)

  11. Oh I hear you! I totally struggle with walking the line between being generic and revealing too much, but I must say, I’ve always thought you do a great job of being real without oversharing. I loved this post and hope you do more like this in the future. I started reading your blog for baking + running, but I really like all of the other stuff you have to add as well (plus I learned that whole wrapping my hair up in a t-shirt thing from you and that has changed my curly haired life–thanks!)

    • Sarah says:

      Rachel – it warmed my heart to hear that you do the hair t-shirt method. That’s awesome!

      Thanks for the nice comment.

  12. Meghan says:

    Been following your blog for awhile now, and encourage you to keep at it! I totally understand the ‘my blog is boring’ feeling; I get that a lot. But like others have already said, honesty is refreshing and interesting, and I think we’ll all be happy to see where your writing takes you next!
    I also have terrible TV obsessions – at least once a week my friend from college (who got me hooked on the show in the first place) texts me and says ”OMG Desperates – did you see it??! CRAZY!!!” Aaaaaand then I have to go watch more Desperate Housewives episodes. I can’t help myself. Also chocolate cake. And Entemen’s donuts.
    … I feel your pain.

  13. Leah says:

    I don’t usually comment, but I understand what you mean about having a blog identity crisis. My food blog is about cooking in Japan. I am an expat blogger. So if end up going back to the US, what do I write about? Ugh. I love your photos of Vermont and of your food! I wish I had some fancy bread to make a sandwich now…

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