Let’s be real.
Lately, I’ve been feeling less than jazzed about my blog. For a while, I was like, that’s fine. I’m okay with a boring blog. I don’t need to give it a ton of attention all the time. I’m busy! I couldn’t quite put my finger on WHY this reasoning didn’t satisfy me, but now I see it’s because I haven’t been super honest on it. It’s hard for me. Friends have to call me out on this from time to time, “Sarah, just say what you are feeling!” or “Why didn’t you tell us this before?!”
I don’t want to over-share on this space, but I do want this to be a more authentic place.
For now, here are 7 honest truths.
1) My relationship status.
I don’t write about this topic on my blog, but I’ll give you an update.
Current status: Single, but I have a crush.
Don’t get too excited for me; it’s unrequited. I’ve been writing a series of emails – a friend’s husband calls them my novelette – about this crush. Although having a crush on someone who confuses the heck out of you – and ultimately isn’t interested – isn’t fun. I’M HAVING SO MUCH FUN WRITING ABOUT IT.
They came out like letters to him (my friend Tom calls that my “epistolary” approach) that I would NEVER send to him, preferring instead to email them to close friends, although now the circle is widening. Ha! I’ve written ten parts to the series, and emailed out eight parts. It will END at Part X though. I’m getting off this train wreck.
Although, I have to admit, it’s one hilarious train ride. When it elicits responses from friends like, “He’s such an effin’ psycho weirdo!!” you know it’s good.
2) My baking identity crisis.
For a long time, I associated me and my blog with baking. Or that’s how I justified it. (Like, I couldn’t have my blog be just about me. That was weird.) And, of course, I’m no professional baker. In fact, at first, I didn’t even know how to write about recipes. Early on, I baked a blogger’s bread that was her mom’s cherished recipe and posted the recipe on my blog with a credit and link to her. Um, no. You don’t do that. Either adapt or totally link the recipe back to the original source. I felt horrible.
So, I finally got that figured out. Kept up with my crazy baking ways. Joined more online baking groups. Friends were always wanting to bake together.
Then, I got SIX CAVITIES this year. I haven’t had a cavity since I was like eight. The only thing I did differently was go batty on baking. For the blog! Because it’s my thing! I’m not sure what other bloggers are doing…..but I ate all that stuff I baked. That’s a whole lotta sugar. That’s not normal. I’m working to get back to normal. Whatever that is. Currently, it involves a little less sugar, chocolate most days, some real meals thrown in at least once a week, and a lot of burritos. I’m still baking on weekends though. Fried doughnuts never tasted so good after a week with very little sugar.
3) Re-reading + Smut Obsession.
- Not only do I read gobs of Young-Adult books, but I reread them. I know! I just bought Divergent AGAIN because I mailed my little sister my only copy and want to reread it. I’m going to reread The Hunger Games TOO!
- I love – ADORE – gossip magazines.
- I read that smut Fifty Shades of Grey trilogy. All three of them. On my computer. In one weekend. It’s horribly written, disturbing, confusing (I had to look up a lot of the “terms” in that book on Wikipedia), and yet, I couldn’t stop reading it.
4) Diet Coke Addiction.
I gave it up a while back – and was SO PROUD of myself – but then I started to drink it again around the holidays. I had been enjoying one a day until the evil dentist’s office. Like with sugar, I’m doing the “less is better” approach. I didn’t have any last week.
5) Career Confusion.
This weekend, I saw two of my classmates from last semester at a coffee shop. It was a gorgeous day, and they were stuck inside, hunkered down with work. I just blurted out, “I’m so glad I’m not taking any classes right now!” They just stared at me. Afterwards, I sipped iced coffee in the sunshine with Jen, and she said, “Um, maybe you shouldn’t have said that to them. They were working pretty hard inside on a pretty, pretty day.” Errr, so true. I felt quite bad after I said it to them. But I don’t miss classes AT ALL. Do I want to still be in the teaching program?! I don’t know.
6) Television Loves.
- Downton Abbey.
- Real Housewives……of anything.
- Ice Loves Coco fascinates me.
- And I watched Frozen Planet on the Discovery Channel last night and cried. The penguins braving the freezing wind for their nests. The mama polar bears starving! It was a tear jerker.